Woolite In He Machine

01/29/2011 @

I should not feel bad about so much more, but I hate myself.
I hate myself, hate Kyo, I hate this neighborhood, I hate everything.
I hate the fact that he could not hide anything even though we are trying with all my strength.
But I can not .. I will not tell him.

I scared the other night, I left and was afraid that I leave him alone ....
did not understand that I would kill myself rather than see him suffer again.
I was about to tell all to the exasperation.

"I'd die if you were not there"

You understand that I'm dying every day, every time I see you and I think 're back together with him?

I told him that there was a reason that night I was out to dinner with Giselle instead of being in the room to serve drunken sluts.
But I did not have the heart to tell him to shout, I was out to dinner with her ... one of the most beautiful women I've ever seen, just to try to forget for a few hours.

was useless.

Even while we were intent on the bed to fuck me you came to mind ....
And I can not stay away, I miss you too.



Lately I'm thinking of moving.
I found a nice apartment in Central Park ... I would be next to you .. are masochistic, I know. But at least if I
need me I'd be there in 5 minutes instead of half an hour.
I just hope that is not the building in front of you, do not stand to see you leave the door directly to his house ...

In less than an hour it's your birthday.
I paid good money because a courier will deliver the gift at midnight precisely.
If he does not swear I'll kill him.


お 誕生 日 おめでとうございます, 秋 人 様.
愛し て います.